I need help. I'M OUT OF CONTROL!!
When I get up in the mornings I'm not hungry. I don't eat breakfast until at least 2 hours and sometimes 3 or 4 hours after I get up. I do alright through the day and eat lunch around 4 hours later. By then I'm starting to get hungry. I rarely eat snacks between breakfast and lunch nor between lunch and dinner. When I start feeling like I may be hungry in a little while I start fixing my dinner. Usually by the time I get if fixed I'm famished. I think the smell and the task alone are what gets the hunger pangs started. After dinner all hell breaks loose. I am usually not hungry for quite a while after dinner but...I LOSE CONTROL! All I can think of is eating, eating, eating. And I do. I save calories so that I can snack in the evenings because I know from experience that I can't make it through the evenings without snacks. My snacks are a salad -or- a bowl of cereal with strawberries -or- some melon -or- a small bag of light pop corn -or- a half a peanut butter sandwich. The problem is that I WANT them all. And sometimes I do eat them all! I can't get food off my mind in the evenings. I can't get satisfied. I'm usually not hungry when I'm doing all this eating, I just think about how good it will taste and end up eating it. I've tried to increase what I eat so that I will be really full and not want anything else to eat after dinner and that doesn't help. Does this happen to anybody out there besides me? What do you do to stop?
I know what would help with this problem but the solution is definitely not feasible. I know if I had someone else in the house with me it wouldn't be like this. When my husband was alive he snacked like this all evening and I can remember wondering where in the world he was putting it all (and he never had a weight problem). I was usually so full after dinner that there was no way I could eat anything else. I'm sure if I had a companion I wouldn't be so bored in the evenings and I wouldn't have the time to think about FOOD. But that ain't gonna happen any time soon, if ever.
I know what to say and how to encourage others with their eating but I can't practice what I preach. I feel like such a hypocrite.
And I'm disgusted with this post editor. I've lost my ability to change my font size and color. I wanted to yell in the first paragraph but couldn't because this stupid thing took away my ability to yell! ARHG!!!!!!!
Oh, fifth clue to special company: I've known these ladies all their lives.
Tired of my ranting? I am.
Happy Hump Day to all you workers out there.
UPDATE: (10:36 AM) I just did my official weigh-in and didn't gain or lose. At least I know maintenance.
Wednesday weigh in
5 hours ago