Thanks for the advice yesterday. It has gotten me to thinking. I do need a vacation from all this concentration but a full blown vacation from it may not be the way to go. Got to thinking about it in more depth and I may blow the whole thing if I get totally off it for any period of time. One of my main problems in this whole thing is that living alone and being retired gives me a tremendous amount of time to think. And the past year my thinking has been about only one thing. "What will I eat next?" or "What can I still have and stay on track?" I was already splurging on my weigh-in day, not the full day but at least one meal. Then I'd feel guilty the next morning for fear that I'd blown the whole thing away. I hate that, which tells me that this whole healthier lifestyle thing is not a lifestyle yet. Will it ever be? I still dream of mashed potatoes and gravy or fettuccine Alfredo with extra sauce or deep fried this and that. Will that ever go away? Probably not. So I guess mentally I'll always be a fat person.
There you go Cammy, trying to get me to exercising again, sly you. And it may just be a good idea for me too. After walking 2 miles yesterday and the way my legs felt and my breathing so hard I know I have GOT to get back to it. It is so easy when there are people here to walk with me and I know I will do it while I have company. I've just got to MAKE myself do it when they leave.
So far since I decided to try a vacation I've still been tracking my calories and food intake. I don't want to get out of that habit or it will definitely get me off this thing all together. I am just at a loss as to what to really do. I'm so tired of all the concentration and not getting results on the scales. I know the wonderful feeling of fitting into a smaller size but want to have the wonderful feeling of seeing the scales drop a little each week too. I know I could concentrate more and make my food intake smaller or less caloric but I just don't think going below 1200 calories would be healthy for me. I have gone below some days but at the end of the week the average is about 1350. Do I just need to make it 1200 all the time? I don't know. According to all the research I've done I should be steadily losing if I stay under 1500 but that doesn't seem to be happening. Is it because my body has been on this thing for so long that it just doesn't want to give up anymore fat? This wasn't so hard when I was younger. I would average 1.5 to 2 pounds drop every week. This sure hasn't been the case this time.
Have a happy week bloggers while I ponder my questions.