Friday, January 30, 2009

Dodging the Bullet...

Well, we've dodged the bullet this past week with all this horrible weather on the eastern side of the US. This is really weird for this part of our state. We usually have the worst weather when all around us are having just a taste of it. I am very thankful for this turn of events.

I've also made a decision. I'm not going to fight with this weight loss anymore. I'm going into maintenance mode, as of yesterday. Yesterday I just ate what I thought in my head was sensible. It wasn't "clean" eating but it was what I wanted and what was satisfying to me. I had bean dip with one ounce of regular cheese melted and a tablespoon of salsa on top and a few Doritos for breakfast. Lunch came around and I had 1 cup of chili and was totally satisfied. For a snack in the afternoon I had 14 almonds. Then the supper hunger pangs started and I grilled myself a burger with fat free cheese and had it on 2 slices of light wheat bread. I was still hungry and wanting something that I hadn't had in a long time and decided I NEEDED it. I cut up a medium potato (with the skin) and fried it in 1 tablespoon of olive oil. It was so yummy, I love fried potatoes. Then I got to thinking about the food and went to enter it into MyFoodDiary. When I completed the task I was amazed. The day came in at 1432 calories. Less than the past couple of weeks when I planned and planned and couldn't stay on course because I was still hungry. I was full and satisfied all evening, even without dessert!! So I have decided that worrying about what and when and how much I eat isn't working for me. I'm not a happy person with all this worrying. I'm in my 60's and I just can't imagine spending the rest of what life I have left worrying about every morsel that goes into my mouth. I'm not going to binge eat but I'm not going to be so strict on myself either. Life just seems too short for me to do that.

I'm not giving up or going back to my previous life style, just changing things a little. I've been doing this for over a year and a half and know what I can and can not eat to keep this weight down. I've lost 70 pounds, for goodness sake. I know what to do. I know I haven't been exercising as I should in the past week. I only did it twice. And I think it was all mental. After pondering all of this last evening and making this decision, this morning I'm thinking of what I can do to get some exercise in. So I guess it is all mental. I'm still getting a treadmill as soon as the NJ kids come to visit and can help me haul it home and set it up.

If I lose more weight along the way, GREAT! If I don't, that's great too. I'm into medium underwear, size 12-14 jeans, large to extra large shirts and that's acceptable to me. I no longer have to head to the plus size section of the store and that's wonderful.

I can remember being on a picnic one time in my teens and my step-Dad and I were laying side by side on the blanket while Mom was packing the picnic basket back up to head home. I, for some reason was putting my legs in the air and Jack did the same. He started ribbing me about how his legs were prettier than mine. (I was about 110 pounds then.) So we started giggling. Last night I put my legs in the air in bed and looked really good at them. They look pretty good!! Almost as good as back then!!

I'm very satisfied with this decision. I have removed my weight stats and the 6 Weeks Challenge from my side bar because of this decision (in case you were wondering). I won't be reporting weekly on my weight loss or gain and I won't be going anywhere. I'll still be here "constant readers" (to coin a phrase from Stephen King). I'll still post about my ups and downs and I'm sure it will be a happier place to visit.

Thanks for all your support and HUGS along the way. Without you I wouldn't have been able to come this far.

Hope this weekend is wonderful in every way for YOU.

10 comments:

Sparky said...

This sounds like a very healthy decision. :) Congrats.

JC said...

You have done so well and I belive you will continue to do well without thinking about it all the time. When I can get in 12-14 clothes I will be happy, happy, happy. You know I'm going to check in every few days and catch up with you whatever you post.

Since I've started on Isagenix, I spend far less time dwelling on food. Now exercise that is another issue but I won't go there.

Have a great weekend

Tony said...

You have come so far and it has been a joy reading about your accomplishments. It looks like you are making the final move towards a healthy lifestyle.

Fatinah said...

I look forward to reading about maintaining also - we are all going to have to do that at some point - and in many ways that is harder.....just don't stop posting!!

Shelley said...

I like that you've accepted your body and what it needs. Seventy pounds is a lot to have lost, and you're keeping it off...that is awesome, and you are an inspiration. I look forward to reading your blog every day.

MaryFran said...

Sounds like you are in a healthy place! Mentally, emotionally and physically! You go girl! I'm ready to follow along on with you on this new phase of your journey!

grammy said...

You will be fine. You know what to do and you won't fall off the wagon (so to speak) You just need a vacation from the numbers and stats... just be healthy. (o:

Cammy said...

The thing about age is that it brings us wisdom (too bad that doesn't fill in the wrinkles.)
We know what "excess" is, and we know what "mindfulness" is, and we ARE wise enough to do the right things...MOST of the time, anyway.

SeaShore said...

The last time I was a 12/14, I was pretty darn happy. I felt good, I looked good, and my body was much healthier.

I admire your decision to maintain now, and if losses happen, they happen, but no expectation. I look forward to reading about your maintenance, and I hope to join you in maintaining sometime this year :)

Tena said...

I would be so happy if I was in your shoes right now. To lose 70 lbs is such a great accomplishment. I can't wait till I'm a 12/14.

I look forward to keeping in touch. You have a way of making me smile every post!