Just a Little Vent...

I had a horrible night. My doggies didn't get to come home yesterday. I hadn't realized how much company they were until last night. Durn the place was quiet and empty. Well, it's always quiet because they rarely ever bark or make a sound for that matter, which makes it kinda weird. Guess it was just the lack of other warm bodies in the house with me. Every time I'd walk past the door I'd, out of habit, check to see if they were ready to come back inside. There was a problem with another dog at the groomers. An emergency frog removal. A collie had a frog stuck in its fur and they had a heck of a time getting it out. They weren't even starting on my dogs until after 6:00 when I called worried to check on them. Then it would have been 10:00 when they would have been ready and they wanted to wait until this morning to do one of them so they wouldn't have to work so late. So they boarded them overnight for free. I'd say for free, since I hadn't planned on it, I surely would have been glad to go get them at 10:00 if I had too.

This last 30+ pounds sure is slow in coming off. It's discouraging. I sat and looked at my weight loss chart yesterday and saw that it took me 16 weeks to get the 10 pounds off from 200 to 190. And it's been 11 weeks so far on this 10 pounds (between 190 and 180). At this rate it will be next October before I get to goal. That means it will have been 2 and 1/2 years (130 weeks) to get 99 pounds off. I know, I know, the slower the better because it will most likely stay off that way, but it doesn't keep it from being discouraging just the same. Good grief, I'm tired of planning and calculating and trying to figure out yet another way to eat chicken and get lots of veggies in. And I'm tired of worrying about how long it will take and when will I be there and what size will I be that I can finally buy clothes that I know I won't be giving away soon? And when can I finally get my rings resized or do I want to just wear them on another finger the rest of my life? And will this weight and skin around the middle be gone or at least not as noticeable? It sure wasn't this hard all the other times I lost weight and got "skinny." Course all the other times I put it back on after a year or so because I didn't learn how to eat healthy, just how to eat until I lost the weight. Sorry, just had to vent a little. And will probably do it again. Thanks for listening reading.

I'm off to pick up my roommates.